Working 9 to 5
If I could change one thing about the world today, it would be to go back to the trading era. "Oh, you want my fresh strawberries? I'll take two bottles of milk from you for trade." Like guys, what. a. life. That is seriously everything I want right now. As I've been working full time for the first time, I'm over it. I'm over the my-life-revolves-around-sitting-at-a-desk part of it. I like my coworkers and my job helping customers at a bank, but I feel so unsatisfied. I miss feeling free and productive and creative and like I am making an impact. Fortunately for me, I do have a lot of down time during my nine-hour days. I have the time to write and journal and read, but it isn't enough for me.
None of what I just listed is worth a potential career. I can't make a living off of such average things. So, I'm back to square one. While I'm in this position, I just have to keep reminding myself that I am literally ~nineteen~ years old. My life will not always be like this. I am not trapped. In fact, my affirmations I listened to this morning included: "My potential is limitless" "I have the power to change my life" "I am worthy of my dreams and desires". All of that felt so fitting for my recent mindset- it honestly felt like a little nudge from the universe (or Habits of a Goddess on Spotify, idk). Now, I am feeling inspired and motivated. Maybe even a little bit powerful.
I would quit so fast if I could pay rent with buckets of corn, but apparently that isn't appropriate in society anymore *eyeroll*. SO, for the time being I am stuck on my butt counting money and answering phones. But these thoughts have just been eating at my brain the past few days to the point of me starting to look at new and exciting jobs that really compliment my skill set and fuel my creative and giving side. My search came to a halt before I could even type it into the Google search bar- my brain; said okay wait, what exactly is my skill set? If you remember my first post (titled first post in case you're interested), I straight up talk about how I am not gifted in any aspect. I mean, I like to write but I'm not so inspiring or breathtaking. Other than that, I like reading books and making videos for my private Instagram. I enjoy walks and singing in the car on drives and petting cats. But that is all. What the freaking bleep am I supposed to do with that?
So, what will I end up doing? I'm not sure. But I am comforted in the fact that since I am so willed to not live a boring life- I know I’ll end up in the general vicinity of my dreams... (hopefully).
